Monday, June 27, 2011

where my heart is

Saturday Jack turned 11 months old.
For us that means two things:
1.) In a month we will celebrate his first birthday.
2.) In a little over a month we will have another appointment with Jack's cardiologist.

For those of you who might not know, Jack was born with two heart defects.
At his one month check-up a heart murmur was detected which led to seeing a specialist.
When Jack was two months old we found out he has an Atrial Septal Defect (ASD - the heart murmur) and Pulmonary Valve Stenosis (PVS). 
At Jack's last appointment (at 6 months) the "numbers" from Jack's tests were not improving. The doctor said there were two things that could be occurring:  the PVS could be getting worse or the PVS could be staying the same but it's hard to determine how well the blood is flowing out of the heart because of the ASD (hole).

Confused yet?

Right after that news the doctor mentioned heart surgery.
He said it was something he wanted to prepare me for, just in case when we go back for his next set of tests and they find the PVS is getting worse.
Usually with something like this I would have broken down into a sobbing-with-snot-and-all kind of cry.
I didn't cry, though. Probably due to lack of sleep and the grace of God.

So anyway. Here we are, very close to another appointment.
I have started thinking about it a lot -
like every time I feel Jack's heart beating (it beats fast, not like a normal heart beat),
or when I paint hearts,
or just when I think about him turning a year old.

I am not stressed out about it. I just think about it.

So with it on my mind {and heart} I am going to be taking a little shop vacation.
The shop will still be open, and I will still be painting, but I am not going to be accepting any custom requests OR State Love orders for at least the month of July. I have already started a list for those who have contacted me with interest of ordering one, so if you would like to reserve a spot please let me know ( at gmail dot com).

Thank you in advance for understanding, and as always, thank you for your prayers and encouragement.


  1. I will be hoping that things are improving - and if there is surgery in the future, that everything goes perfectly.

  2. I'm praying for you & your sweet family!

  3. i am praying for you all! God is sovereign i just KNOW jack's condition is improving!

    "my GOD is so big, so strong, and so mighty there's nothing my GOD cannot do"
    ~i'm singing this for you in my best jr. from veggie tales voice!~


  4. Big hugs Lindsay! I will keep you and sweet baby boy Jack in my thoughts and heart during the upcoming appointment and tests. I pray that all is improving.

  5. Sending prayers your way! (That picture of Jack with the heart is it!)

  6. Sending hugs your way! I can't believe how your handsome boy is growing up so fast! Will be thinking of you guys often!

  7. aw, praying for you & your family, lindsay!! this is such a hard time, but God will see you through it. :)

  8. I just love your blog and shop and I am stopping by the let you know that I featured your I heart state canvas from your shop and also linked them to your blog on my Pinterest of the Week #6 blog post. Make sure to check it out and grab my button saying you were featured on

    A mommy's life...with a touch of YELLOW

  9. Oh Lindsay, I'm thinking of you and Jack! I hope and pray you get great news at Jack's next appointment!! XOX!!

  10. i had no idea :( i'll be praying for you, jack & the rest of your family <3

  11. I love you dearly, and you know I will be praying for you and sweet little Jack.

  12. i did not know this about your peanut. praying for him.

  13. love you friend. praying for you and jack. call me when you can.

  14. Thinking of you my friend - and praying for that adorable little babe of yours, who will be just fine :)

  15. I have a Jack too. He'll be 10 in just about two weeks. And he, too, was born with a congenital heart defect. From listening, our doctor guessed an ASD, but the cardiologist found it was Aortic Stenosis. It seemed to get better for a few years (and they told us it probably wouldn't need to be repaired until he was 40 or 50 or 60), but then a leak developed, and that has been the real issue. Last year when we saw the cardiologist, it changed to being told that it wouldn't be soon, but would be before he was an adult. But, when we went back in January, it had progressed more than the doctor expected, and he was sent for tests to see if we needed to do surgery right away. We managed to squeek by in missing surgery for now, but we have an appointment scheduled for a week after his birthday. I am nervous, but I also have had to tell myself that this is just all in God's hands.

    I'll pray for your Jack's heart when I'm praying for my Jack's heart.


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